Tuesday, July 8, 2014
Back to Me
I have often been told that I am grumpy, hard headed, impossible and even a few names that I'd rather not put here, because the worlds in my life don't mix. I don't share stories about my kids at work, I don't discuss business at the dinner table. It wasn't for a lack of trying I just really didn't know how. My life has always been black and white. You were good or you were bad. There was no grey.
I have tried over the years to blend more. I tried to make friends at work but found that many would call me friend as they stepped on me to get to where they were going. I tried to trust people, only to have that trust thrown back in my face as I was stabbed in the back. I tried working for friends or family only to find that they didn't respect my work. Each time I tried to dump the boxes and mix the contents I was hurt for my efforts. So I stopped trying. In fact I made even greater strides to keep my worlds distinctly apart.
This has lead to an interesting complication. People don't think I'm real. Because I don't talk about being a nanny for several years they don't understand why I am so good at working with children. Because I don't talk about homeschooling my older son or my younger son's struggles in school they don't understand why I know so much about the education system. They discount my advice because they don't know how I know.
When I started the blog with the intention of having it be a reflection of me. My views, my beliefs and my interests. But it didn't take long before I started looking at it as a "work" blog and it went into that box. At first it was easy. There were a ton things that I could write about. But then my attention was drawn to a different box and I struggled to post on a consistent basis.
So I am now trying another approach. Another attempt at just being me. I ask that my followers stick with me during this transition as I am trying to open up and dump out those boxes again. Hopefully this time, I won't get hurt.
Wife of a Native, Mum to the Spawn. I don't fit in a box, literally or figuratively. I don't have a label. I can't be cataloged. My life is a combination of all that defines me. Wife, Mum, Writer, Reviewer, Critic, Photographer, Business Owner and Crafter. Advocate for common sense and collector of names.
To find out more about my writing, photography, reviews or life in general, check out my blog at http://www.NancyCWalker.com