Friday, May 1, 2015

Day 38 - Calm before the storm

The nightmares are getting worse. I knew they would. It was impossible to avoid. Anxiety always brings them out and reading a book that seems to be triggering things that I can't remember isn't helping.

In my own defense I didn't think this would trigger me as badly as it is. I often read books that are on the edge of my comfort level. I like the thrill of them. But sometimes I pick books that are too dark or too real. It's something of a love/hate relationship. Torturing myself like this often leads to me remembering things that have been long buried. Things that haven't been resolved, but need to be. Maybe this will be the year that I finally remember...